Slowly considering giving up on my dream of writing in games.

This is probably one of the most depressing posts I've ever had to write.

Despite everything going on with GamerGate, I still wanted to write about videogames as a career; I mean, if nothing else, someone has to set a good example, right?

The problem arises from the fact that most people by this point (4months in? 1yr?) have many views on their personal blogs, and are doing things so steadily that they easily have a following, and a flow of games coming in, even from publishers, so they can keep up their content.

I don't have any of that, and I barely get any views on my blog, period. It's incredibly disheartening, and I don't know what to do. I know it's hard getting into the industry, especially in this day and age where everyone can be a writer if they chose to do so. I just .. I don't know. I'm sitting here feeling defeated, as if I wasted all this time. It's been on my mind for a very long time, and I don't know if I can keep working at it, because there are real careers I could be starting, and setting my life towards.

I don't want those careers, however. I want to do videogames. I want to completely immerse every aspect of my life in videogames.. but the longer I do this, and the fewer and fewer people who visit my blog, the more I begin to realize I might be screwed. This really might be all there is for me, a tiny blog that no one ever visits, where I review games and no one cares, because who am I, really? I'm a goddamned nobody.

Being a nobody fucking sucks.